From my kitchen to yours

From my kitchen to yours

Tuesday, April 9, 2013


I love flowers...
They NEVER fail to make me smile .
Thank you Amito...

There is something so pure and beautiful about them.
But I love them on the plants itself.
So I normally will not pluck them.
But just take a photograph..
I have tons of photographs of flowers , and each one reminds me of a beautiful place, time and person.

But more important than the flowers I collect in photos ..

I have a jar of hearts..

I may not be able to photograph each beautiful moment.
But I remember the ones that touch me in a series of conversations, or messages or moments, how their voice sounded, how their eyes looked, where we were and how did I feel .
To an evening that needed to happen, We have to do this again..

Yup I'm like an elephant sometimes, whose memory captures everything and also very emotional like them, they are known to have rescued trapped dogs sometimes, these elephants ..
So ya.

But like every human being , I also come with my own set of horrible flaws.
But I'm trying to be like a flower that makes you smile even if you snip it's heart line..
It's not easy at all let me tell you ..

Sometimes I feel completely alone even when I'm surrounded by friends.
Maybe because I do not have too many of them .
Have always been someone who has gone through school , college and adulthood with just one friend ..
Because although I'm a friendly bounding retriever kind of person.
I take a bit of time to open my heart to someone...
And when I do , I think I frighten them away with so many emotions and the fact that I always do and say the wrong  things at the right time ..
Freeze at the most opportune moments..
Or maybe react a little too late..
Or maybe so much that it's all wrong .

Like if an elephant ....
                               came running to greet you.....
You will run away ha ha ha
That's only sensible ..Right ?
Well so whenever in doubt I now bake or go for a run, whichever is easier, the baking always wins...
I have realised that any cake  batter that has yogurt in it always becomes soft and fluffy..
So here goes

Chocolate Yogurt Muffins
3/4 cup muscovado sugar
3/4 cup melted unsalted butter
11/4 cup  yogurt

2 eggs
1 1/2 tsp vanilla extract

2 cups all purpose flour
1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1/2 tsp. salt
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1 cup semi-sweet chocolate or bittersweet chips

Preheat oven to 200 degrees C. 
Line a muffin tin with paper muffin cups.

Stir brown sugar and butter together in a medium size bowl. Add yogurt, egg and vanilla and stir until thoroughly blended.
Combine flour, cocoa, salt and baking powder in a large mixing bowl. 
Add yogurt mixture to flour mixture, stirring only until blended. 
Fold in chocolate chips. Spoon batter into greased muffin tins and bake for 22-25 minutes.

So while my muffins were baking in the oven..
I also realised that , sometimes what you feel about someone ,they do not necessarily feel about you..
Be it love, fondness, disappointment, anger, jealousy or friendship etc etc
And so I feel the only thing is..
If you want to know the truth "dive in" if you are brave enough..
I do ..

Words according to me are very cheap ..
There are a 100 beautiful things I can say ..
Maybe because I know you would like to hear it ..
But they are mere words..
And words that are not backed with deeds..
Is like a garden of what you think were flowers..
But they are actually weeds..

And I don't know anyone who wants weeds because they spoil the plot ..
In more simple a language, they mess with you ..

So if you want something ask..
If you hurt someone say sorry
If you love someone let them know
If you don't , let them go , don't string them along , because it makes you feel good ..
My chocolate roses...

This month of March has been quite a month..
Some say it was because of the monster moon , that affected each and all..
I'm not into astrology , as in blindly believing everything, but yes I'm very very curious about it and I love it..
There must be some truth in it
But what's important is knowing our own truth..

So I started April in silence..
And I heard so much ..
And realised...
That yes the most beautiful moments in life happen in silence..
This month has begun with conversations  I needed to have...
And heart-warming gifts..
I looked deep into my eyes... 
And the eyes of the ones I wanted to look into and decided to stop living in this paradise that had a whole lot of broken walls , that I was trying to ignore..
So I walked around the boundaries and broke them all..
And they break, when you find answers...
You also see that what you thought was real..
Was actually not..

So I went back to all the people I want in my life..
Whether they wanted to or not ..
And put my cards on the table
It's an open deck..
Nothing hidden..
And will continue like that..
Those who would like to stay and join me , well what can I say, I'm the happiest..
Those who do not want to ..
Well I cannot do anything about it..
It called exercising your "free will" and even God does not interfere with it...

So it does not mean that I stop loving or liking someone..
It just means that they have other priorities that I should respect ..
I have come to the conclusion that you should not chase love, affection or attention, if it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having...
Thank you Mins,  I love this book..
P.S.You are always right...

As for my garden ..
I'm pulling out all the weeds..
As I can see them now..
Yes I have my green glasses on..
My Hyperopia has increased and my number is  now 1.75  Ha ha ha
And so I'm gardening..

And as I now sit in the still of the night and decorate these muffins
And sprinkle glitter on them ..
I feel a sense of calm..
And hope..

When friendships get too close ...
You reach a place where you do collide...
And then you could either walk ahead together or stop..

And then some fall apart
Some together
I guess that's how life is ..
So while I bite into my "Not empty-words flower Muffins"..

All I know is that everything works out in the end
And if it has not..
Then it is not yet the end..
Muchos Abrazos  ...
Siempre from "Maria's Kitchen"


  1. Maria.....

    what a trunk call i get from you!!!!!!!!! One elephant to another. You just write what i have in mind. Incredible. What are we to do with all these people and memories all jam packed in the head??? Oh! i will figure it out one day for sure. Love the writing and the cooking . I am enjoying both from afar and that's just fine by me.

    1. Thank you Sneha,
      And thank you for actually trying to raise money for Karunashraya, what can I say , you are a rock star..

  2. There it is another heart to heart post after a whole month from the uber positive lovely Maria! :) lets just say you took a whole month to come to words of this post otherwise how would we your readers(lovely equally :)) get to read your experiences who one and all can so easily connect to!

    read : dont make this departure monthly monthly now *sad face*

    love and lots of it,


    1. Dear Zeenath,
      That is really sweet of you, sometimes i do not know what to write , so I dont...till it just flows..

  3. Maria , Beautiful words once again..Your words are so beautiful that I could ignore those attractive muffins and scrolled down. You are right , you know, words are cheap..and life happens in silence.."And words that are not backed with deeds..
    Is like a garden of what you think were flowers..
    But they are actually weeds.."..Beautiful..:) I have one request..Write more..I love your words , they are straight from the heart.

  4. Maria--Hi,
    Will I ever get to taste all the lovely baked goods I read about?
    Making a trip with my kiddo, maybe in Diwali to Mumbai.
    Will be meeting laxmi and gang--maybe you too?
    Let me know

    1. Guddi, sorry about yesterday..
      But please do call, have not met anyone in years, maybe you will change it all...

    2. np,
      Will call, apologies, I didnt realize how late it was, when I called.
      talk to you soon,

  5. Hi Maria,
    I have been following your blog since longtime. I have always been your admirer ever since MTV days. I love what you write here, your amazing recipes and the way you describe them and life...
    This post could not have come at a better time. Everything makes so much sense. Specially
    "I have come to the conclusion that you should not chase love, affection or attention, if it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having..."
    But what do you do about the heartache when you realize that what you thought was real was actually not real and that too comes from someone closest to you?
    How do you let go?

    1. Actually I do not know the answers to lifes questions, i'm just a traveller too..
      So I make my way and try to live life to the fullest...

  6. Aww how lovely! Only just stumbled upon your blog (while taking a break from my PhD!) and though I know youre a celebrity and all and Im not much of a celebrity-gazer, I thought this was such a warm holding a lovely cup of tea and nibbling into a piece of cake and sitting on a bench in a park in the autumn! Hmm dont know if it makes sense, but honestly, shall be reading more heart-warming posts of yours :-)

    1. Dear Priyanka,
      welcome to my world...
      And I hope you stop for a cup of tea more often ...

  7. hi maria

    i cant even begin to describe how uncanny what uve written is to what im going thru right now....

    Thank u for putting into words what some of us may never be able to express to our loved ones...angela

  8. Hi Maria,

    i sooo love your thought of relating to an elephant. We all are same somewhere. I am soo fond of Muffins and now i can bake them too!!!

  9. Hii maria
    The good thing about weed is that they r obstinate enuf to keep coming back....haha...
    smile like s flower even itz heartline has been snipped has touched my heart line...lot of love..aashi...i can't end wo thanking u for replying me on twitter...yay!

    1. Ha ha ha Aashi...
      I hope all is well with you and you are happy ....