I love flowers...
They NEVER fail to make me smile .
There is something so pure and beautiful about them.
But I love them on the plants itself.
So I normally will not pluck them.
But just take a photograph..
I have tons of photographs of flowers , and each one reminds me of a beautiful place, time and person.
But more important than the flowers I collect in photos ..
I have a jar of hearts..
I may not be able to photograph each beautiful moment.
But I remember the ones that touch me in a series of conversations, or messages or moments, how their voice sounded, how their eyes looked, where we were and how did I feel .
Yup I'm like an elephant sometimes, whose memory captures everything and also very emotional like them, they are known to have rescued trapped dogs sometimes, these elephants ..
But like every human being , I also come with my own set of horrible flaws.
But I'm trying to be like a flower that makes you smile even if you snip it's heart line..
It's not easy at all let me tell you ..
Sometimes I feel completely alone even when I'm surrounded by friends.
Maybe because I do not have too many of them .
Have always been someone who has gone through school , college and adulthood with just one friend ..
Because although I'm a friendly bounding retriever kind of person.
I take a bit of time to open my heart to someone...
And when I do , I think I frighten them away with so many emotions and the fact that I always do and say the wrong things at the right time ..
Freeze at the most opportune moments..
Or maybe react a little too late..
Or maybe so much that it's all wrong .
Like if an elephant ....
came running to greet you.....
You will run away ha ha ha
That's only sensible ..Right ?
Well so whenever in doubt I now bake or go for a run, whichever is easier, the baking always wins...
I have realised that any cake batter that has yogurt in it always becomes soft and fluffy..
So here goes
Chocolate Yogurt Muffins
3/4 cup muscovado sugar
3/4 cup melted unsalted butter
11/4 cup yogurt
1 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
2 cups all purpose flour
1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1/2 tsp. salt
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1 cup semi-sweet chocolate or bittersweet chips
Preheat oven to 200 degrees C.
Line a muffin tin with paper muffin cups.
Stir brown sugar and butter together in a medium size bowl. Add yogurt, egg and vanilla and stir until thoroughly blended.
Combine flour, cocoa, salt and baking powder in a large mixing bowl.
Add yogurt mixture to flour mixture, stirring only until blended.
Fold in chocolate chips. Spoon batter into greased muffin tins and bake for 22-25 minutes.
So while my muffins were baking in the oven..
I also realised that , sometimes what you feel about someone ,they do not necessarily feel about you..
Be it love, fondness, disappointment, anger, jealousy or friendship etc etc
And so I feel the only thing is..
If you want to know the truth "dive in" if you are brave enough..
I do ..
Words according to me are very cheap ..
There are a 100 beautiful things I can say ..
Maybe because I know you would like to hear it ..
But they are mere words..
And words that are not backed with deeds..
Is like a garden of what you think were flowers..
But they are actually weeds..
And I don't know anyone who wants weeds because they spoil the plot ..
In more simple a language, they mess with you ..
So if you want something ask..
If you hurt someone say sorry
If you love someone let them know
If you don't , let them go , don't string them along , because it makes you feel good ..
This month of March has been quite a month..
Some say it was because of the monster moon , that affected each and all..
I'm not into astrology , as in blindly believing everything, but yes I'm very very curious about it and I love it..
There must be some truth in it
But what's important is knowing our own truth..
So I started April in silence..
And I heard so much ..
That yes the most beautiful moments in life happen in silence..
This month has begun with conversations I needed to have...
And heart-warming gifts..
I looked deep into my eyes...
And the eyes of the ones I wanted to look into and decided to stop living in this paradise that had a whole lot of broken walls , that I was trying to ignore..
So I walked around the boundaries and broke them all..
And they break, when you find answers...
You also see that what you thought was real..
Was actually not..
So I went back to all the people I want in my life..
Whether they wanted to or not ..
And put my cards on the table
It's an open deck..
And will continue like that..
Those who would like to stay and join me , well what can I say, I'm the happiest..
Those who do not want to ..
Well I cannot do anything about it..
It called exercising your "free will" and even God does not interfere with it...
So it does not mean that I stop loving or liking someone..
It just means that they have other priorities that I should respect ..
I have come to the conclusion that you should not chase love, affection or attention, if it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having...
As for my garden ..
I'm pulling out all the weeds..
As I can see them now..
Yes I have my green glasses on..
My Hyperopia has increased and my number is now 1.75 Ha ha ha
And so I'm gardening..
And as I now sit in the still of the night and decorate these muffins
And sprinkle glitter on them ..
I feel a sense of calm..
When friendships get too close ...
You reach a place where you do collide...
And then you could either walk ahead together or stop..
And then some fall apart
I guess that's how life is ..
So while I bite into my "Not empty-words flower Muffins"..
All I know is that everything works out in the end
And if it has not..
Then it is not yet the end..
Muchos Abrazos ...
Siempre from "Maria's Kitchen"