From my kitchen to yours

From my kitchen to yours

Monday, June 30, 2014

INSIDE OF YOU & I..

And then there you were walking on my path ..
Why I wondered...
Because we all have our own ..
It's not like we never walked before ..
But you know ..
I was a bit confused..
A little bemused..
To find you , on a path that you never wanted to walk before..
It was too pretty and perfect you said ..
And yet , here you were all smiles and lit up eyes..
Looking at me ..

I said nothing..
I just looked into your eyes..
They were like molten gold and full of conversation inside ..

But in silence we walked..
And the birds did all the talk
While we walked with the beat of our breath..
Mystical magical twilight set upon us ..

Twilight is kinda naughty you know
He sets it all beautiful with his golden glow..
And then leaves without a warning
Before the moon has a chance to put on his amorous show..

So twilight nudged us both together..
We walked slowly.
Side by side ..

We said nothing ..
For quite sometime..
And then broke into peals of laughter..
There was just too much we had to share..

We started with the weather..
All warm and fair..
Discussed the fresh rains and how beautiful it felt beating on the bare grass..
And then came the snow..
That I always long to play in..
We veered to topics about Mother Earth ..
Politics, kids and global warming ..
If anyone dropped in on us ..
We sounded like friends , catching up on each other's life ..
And would never really know ..
The truth that played inside..

We laughed..
We giggled..
We strolled some more...

We watched the twilight swiftly fade away
And pave the way for a Prussian sky..
Mighty brooding..
Like the insides of you and I..

You wrapped my fingers in the warmth of yours, like it was just the most normal thing to do..
And then pulled me close, and kissed me , like I have always wanted you to...
You pulled me closer like you always threatened to ..
And I just snuggled deeper into you ..
We talked about music , books and the world..
I looked at the fine lines on your face
And the dull ache in your eyes
That you always keep at bay ..
This felt like it was always meant to be ..

So are we strangers, lovers or friends..
Who just walk the same path again and then again ..
Sometimes we hold on..
Sometimes I let go ..
Sometimes you disappear to another shore ..

But where your heart reaches..
Even you sometimes don't know ..
It mostly walks on a wild path..
Whether or not you led it afar..
It strides on ..
Till it bursts into a kaleidoscope of colours..
Merged into one another..
Where you can't tell one from the other ..
And that's the place it puts up tent and stays, till the earth changes all over again...

So are we going to continue like this ..
Or are we going to stay ..
Meshed, entangled in each other's hearts and minds all day ..
There is much more to life ..
Than meeting another soul they say ..
Naysayers laugh at love and it's play ..

But I'm going with my heart..
Though many a times it has led me astray ..
It can't be that wrong..
It does eventually find it's way ..

It's important to fall in love again and again ..
It's good for your insides..
It fills all the crevices..
It widens your smile..
It keeps you warm..
Even on a cold dark night..

So will continue to walk with you , till we decide to find a new path..
Together or then a new way ..
And yes we continue to smile, laugh , love and be ..

To love and to let it be ..
To the words that escaped my lips...
To the words that you held back ..
To the words you and me will never hear..
To the words that our hearts felt..
To all the words in-between and floating around us..
They sometimes mean nothing, till they transform to a touch..

I just want to look at you for a long long time ..
You can do the same if you please ..

And then I want to hold your face and kiss your fears away ..
And show you how to look into the sun on a bright sun shining day ..

When you fall in love ..
You don't really lose your self ..
You find a much better you ..
That's able to breathe even if it's all askew...

We have our own little world..
Where your voice mingles with my breath..
And my heart beat with your kisses ..
So brief and yet infinite with possibilities..

And so let's keep reality for another day ..
We have her hovering around us perennially ..

She tells us what to do ..
Where to go ..
How to behave ..

Not that I'm always attentive ..
But she has me on a leash ..
And sometimes robs my peace ..

So I walk away then ..
And sit under this big shady tree..
Read my book..
Swing with dandelions..
And laugh aloud..
And sing to the strums of a guitar playing somewhere around ..

It's a funny weirdly entwined life ..
Where love,
life and reality are at play ..

So how about you ..
What do you do ..
I live life ..
And let it happen to me ..
I let reality walk with me as my constant companion..
But I run away with love ..
He is my man ..
And will always be ..



Sunday, June 8, 2014

IS THIS REAL ????

And why do we keep meeting in my dreams ..
You walked in again tonight as soon as I closed my eyes..

I was walking on soft sand, my happy black and white polka dot sari playing with the wind..
Sifting through my thoughts..
Wondering if this life is what I want or am not living it fully enough..

When I suddenly saw you..
My heart stopped..
I did not think twice..
I broke into a run..

Were we to meet..
I cannot say...
We don't anymore talk that way..

But it felt good to see you again..
You looked at me and broke into a smile..
You stood up..
And ran towards me..
It was nearly a mile..
Its's been a long passage of time...

We collided into each other.
And melted..
Like we always do..
The world quitened around us..
There was no din..
We could just hear each others heart- beats ...
And the softness of our breath..
Pacing hearts and relaxed bodies..
You held my face..
Said the sun looks nice shining in my eyes..
You pushed away my hair..
And settled on my lips..
It was a deep long kiss..
I put my hands around your neck..
And held on tight..

This felt like it was why we met or the reason..
We are not supposed to meet..
You and me..
Forbidden yet so full of love and so sweet..

I said nothing..
And neither did you..
I looked into your eyes..
It made no difference to me..
Whether you said you loved me or not..
Words were not needed..

We anyway always communicated in thought..
You looked slightly tired..
A little bit waiting for love ..

Like your soul has been walking around..
Its relaxed, but still has not found its place of peace..
Happy yet not satiated..

I knew that what you and me share..
Is not at all like the rest of the world..
It's powerful, potent..
And has the capability to combust..
Set fire to all..
And to us..

And so we walked hand in hand..
To as long as the road could be our path..
And suddenly it turned all dark..
The skies..
Grumbled in an angry rage..
And lightening set the dark ablaze..
It poured like the kind , you would not believe..
And then we had the cold wind for company..
You pulled me closer..
And tighter into you..
We shivered..
Together..
Searching for some shelter..
Hoping this would stop..
But it raged on without a thought..
Drenched from head to toe..
We just trudged on..
Not letting any moment to go...

I could see..
The sky was turning a different hue..
Dawn was going to break..
And with that you would be gone too..

I stopped..
I just wanted to hide..
I did not want the sun to appear by our side..

You stopped walking..
You just turned me to you..
You held my face..
Looked into my eyes..
And kissed away all my worries aside..
I just froze I did not move..
I did not want this moment to end..
What if this was the last time I was meeting you..
Inside this twilight world that is not my friend..
I put my arms around you to smile and say..
I will see you soon..
But nothing.. .
No words were willing to escape my lips..
I just held you..
Close..
And so very very tight..
And sobbed into you..
Till my body racked crying with all it's might..

We let go..
We then sat under that black sky that was slowly turning pink grey..
And lay down on the damp grass..
And started counting the stars that were slowly melting away ..

We both knew..
This maybe it..
So we turned our faces to each other and held on for dear life..

We never knew where and when again..
We would meet..
It would only be possible..
If we both in our sub conscious deep..
Walked towards one another..
And knocked at the door of each other's hearts..

That's where we both live..
In a world untouched by the games of normal mankind..

I know most may not believe this..
But it is true..

Love is more powerful than both me and you..
It can transcend space , time and distance..
If it's true..
And it does live inside you ..

Sometime you meet someone..
Who will just unlock that key..
And it will all pour out..
Like a waterfall..
Held by a dam..
Gushing with a force that is unimaginable by man..

When this happens..
You will be free..
You will understand..
That love was never meant to have a name..
Or have an ownership in anyone..
It was meant  to to given freely and accepted with abandon..

It is exactly that walk on a road without a path..
With the rain pouring down..
And everything being stark..
Everything washed away..
Clean ,naked ,bare..

If you find this path..
You will find me there..
I'm not worried..
Never have been..
About what people may say ..
They say what they want to anyway..

To me..
I'm in love with love of a different kind
Real, with no pretensions or apprehensions ..
The one that smiles into my eyes..
Not bothered about the rain or the cold ..

The one that melts into me..
And let's us be free..
That the kind..
We share..
You and I ..

Is it real ?
I cannot say ..
Time will tell when we walk out of our dreams and into the real world ..
That's where real love lives anyway ..

And so ..
I hope in this life when you pass me by..
You and me..
Will grab our moments..
And let it take over our life..

We let love take over our existence..
And charm life with a smile..
We hold on..
We let go..

But we never treat one another..
Like just another droplet from the sky..

To me you will always be very very special..
And will live..
Part in my dreams, in my words , in my life..


And if you ever want to know if I love you ..
Take a walk with me ..
And when the dark night is seized by the soft tender rays of the sun ..

Just look into my eyes ..