MY SPECIAL BIRTHDAY GIFT.....

The "ARTIST" ..Harshvardhan Kadam.

SHAKTI'S DISCOVERY

The concept behind the painting. Self realization of this woman happens in a cosmic ethereal space where the wings represent anticipation of a leap towards freedom. Her posture is submissive. She had surrendered her soul to the realization but she is no slave of anybody. Her being naked represents purity & beauty of her womanhood. Energies within her have found new horizons to explore & explode. I call this painting - Shakti's discovery.
Harshvardhan Kadam.

So my Friend Jaya, wanted to give me something that is really special, and that is me....

And she kept telling me that she has commissioned a painting for me...

Now who on earth gets a "commissioned" painting, only, of course if you are the Queen...

Or if you have a friend like my friend Jaya...(here I'm curtseying)

Who looks at me , but can read me like only , she can ...

And so she kept telling me , its getting done and will reach you soon ...

And stop asking me again ...its special and that takes time...

When I received this , I was speechless...

I knew that Harsh was painting me a birthday gift...

And he was going to paint only after he met me...

Artists ..I tell you...

But this guy is something else...

He is quiet, shy, intelligent and has the warmest smile....

And his work is mesmerizing...

I'm speechless..

All I can say is that "It's an honour"...

And "Thank -you" .....

OH MY GOD.......YEAAAAAAAHHHHHH.....


I'm just extremely and happily surprised , and starry eyed with this interpretation ...
Done specially for me...


I love you guys....
And I wish you all the love and luck ..for the collaboration you are working on ....

P.S. Sharing this with you, because Food and Art like LOVE.....is most fulfilling when shared ...

       Yup ..this is my theory and I'm sticking to it ....

AS PRETTY AS A WOMAN IN LOVE....

And so this afternoon, I finally finished my "Sugar-paste and Fondant" workshop ..
Have immersed myself in the art of making sugar flowers, because have an insatiable desire to learn new things and also because I love flowers..
Especially daisies ...
They make me happy ..Very happy..
Flowers always, and I mean always, put a smile on my face...

So for the past three weeks..
With a few holidays in between ..
I have made flowers and more flowers..
Roses, Carnations, Asters, Poinsettias, Azaleas, Lotus, Daisies,Lilies Blossoms etc..etc..

 How the petal should look ..
How it should curl or twirl...
I have done ruffles and crimps and borders....

Learned how to make a wedding cake..
NO NO have absolutely no intention of getting married..
This is for the other suckers...ha ha ha ..

Learned how to make caramel..
How to air-brush flowers...
Pipe dots that look like lace, make pretty pieces of lace out of royal icing, make butterflies , that I'm crazy about and basically everything that makes the outside of a cake ...
As pretty as a "Woman in Love"..

Yup..Because a woman in love, looks beautiful because of what she holds inside her...
That her smile speaks in a language you may never understand...
Her eyes light up with embers nobody can extinguish..

And I feel, in the same way, if you can translate , into a form how yummy the inside of a cake is, then well, you have learned some "MAGIC" in life...

Fabian , my teacher is absolutely fantastic...and Magical...
He is patient and always has words of encouragement..
And in these  past 3 weeks , I have not only learned , how to decorate cakes and make them beautiful inside out, but also learnt a little more patience...
Because when you learn Sugar-craft...
you need patience...LOTS OF IT ...

So you see, in my (fantastic or crazy...take your pick) opinion, the out side of a cake is very much like a woman is love...
Very very beautiful, intricate, fragile and brimming with an unparalleled glow..
But if you do not handle her with a lot of love, care and loving attention....
She will crack under harshness or neglect, just like the beautiful sugar-paste flowers or an over exposed Fondant, (which keeps the beautiful essence of the cake protected like a loving arm wrapped protectively around the one you love...)
And all the richness and flavour and essence of love that she holds inside her , will lose some its fragrance and wholesomeness due to exposure to the harsh elements ...

So in my conclusion...
Please do go and learn at least one thing in life , that challenges you and makes you happy..
To me , I'm blessed that I get a chance to explore various roads in my life...
Fall in love..
Drink wine...
Smile...
Believe in magic, only then can it stay alive..
Let water flown under the bridge ...GO...
Laugh, even if no one is cracking any jokes...
And love your self...
And thank the one above , before you go to sleep , for everything...Regardless...

And treat everyone with as much love and care as possible...
You never know , if you ever gonna meet them , ever again...

So yes, I love all that I learnt from Fabian...
And yes I love spending time with flowers...
Now I need to get down to practising , all I learnt...
And put it all to good use..

Till then...
I will stay , happy and smiling...
And will walk a mile..
And will talk , as much as I do...
And make you laugh , like only I can...
And sing my favorite songs...
And chase butterflies..
And put daisies in my hair, smile and squint at the sun..
And sit by a lake so blue...
And wave out to the puffy clouds passing by..

OK I'm stopping ...now..
Or Mini, Jaya and Sandy, will again shake their beautiful heads and and toss their tresses and roll their kohl lined eyes and say, "The girl has lost it"...
Well frankly, "I have"...

P.S. Call Fabian (9820521374), if you want to learn , all this really amazing stuff..

 
 

Day 71 - ZENE ZOE'S 5TH BIRTHDAY...

And as usual , this year too, Zene cut more  cakes than my little Zeke ever does..
She cut 4 cakes again..
One in school..
One for her birthday party, that we had for her for the first time, (as in May there is really no one to have a party with..)
The cake I made for her , which had pink bows and blue flowers..

A small group of monkeys that I love

A layer of marzipan, butter-cream icing and chocolate ganache..

It had to be filled with flowers..

The birthday girl, through the loops..

Had to put daisies..happy flowers..

And the fresh mango cake that we always have for her birthday at Waterstones, that is simply , out of this world...

And so this year, was wondering what to make for her birthday and as she is not completely into chocolate , I decided to bake a simple sponge that was not too chocolaty..
I tried this for the first time...



INGREDIENTS..
115 gm-Chocolate
1/2 cup-double cream ( I used the Amul tetra-pack)
1/2 cup- Milk
1 tbsp- Vanilla essence
115 gm- Butter
175 gm- Castor sugar
3- Eggs
225gm - Flour
1tsp- Baking powder

METHOD

Pre-heat the oven to 150 degrees, and grease and line two 8 inch round tins with silicon or parchment paper..
In a small bowl, sift the flour, the baking powder,and keep aside... 

Melt the chocolate with the cream on a double boiler,over a low flame , stirring until smooth..
Then take it off the flame and stir in the milk and vanilla essence, and set aside to cool...

In a large bowl beat the butter and sugar for about 3 to 5 minutes, until light and fluffy...
Add the eggs , one at a time , beating after every addition...

Alternatively add the flour and the chocolate mixture to the egg and sugar mix..Until just blended..

Divide the mix into the two tins, and bake for 30 minutes or till the cake springs back if you press it in the center.. or if you insert a tooth pick in the center, it comes out clean...
Cool the cakes in the tins for 10 minutes and then, take them out and leave to cool on a wire rack..

It is always better if you can cool both the cakes and then keep it in the fridge over night...
It is easier to slice them..

Slice both the cakes in the center..
Stack them over one another, filling each layer with a filling of your choice..
I use Almond marzipan in one layer...
The second layer had butter cream icing..
And the third layer had chocolate ganache..



And once this was done ..
I was then wondering what to do as part of the decoration..
Well I knew it had to be as pretty and dainty as my little monkey "Zene"...
And so this is the first cake I decorated in the middle of doing my Sugar-craft and fondant course..
And it was great fun...
Zeke kept her away from the kitchen, while I made flowers and mixed colours and formed ribbons , and piped leaves...
Zene would keep coming to the kitchen on the pretext of water or just generally...
And Zeke would keep chasing her away..
Or then we would make her shut her eyes and drink her water that she kept coming for...
After some time...
I decided that I need to have a glass of wine..
So I poured myself some really nice Pinot Noir..
And left it near me.....
Till I finished the cake..
Once it was done, I looked at it, and frankly could not really believe that I could create something so beautiful...
I was very happy with what I created, really happy...
The cake looked happy and pretty and so beautiful , like my Zene...

On Zene's birthday, that is 2nd May, we all went to our favorite , Dakshinayan, with Zene's friends and my friends and , grandma and grand pa..
Stuffed our selves with "Gun-powder idli's , rasam-rice, Bissebille bhat, Dosas, vadas and when we were all too full to move...

We got Zene's birthday cake out, cut it and ate it...
It was soft and had a nice mix of different flavours...
The marzipan , butter-cream and chocolate, along with the lightly flavoured chocolate sponge, was a very delicate taste...
It was very much like my Zene actually...very lovely on the outside and completely surprising and full of flavour on the inside...
Well what can I say, she does take after her "Mama"....ha ha ha 

We then proceeded to our little piece of paradise...
Where we swam and chatted and had a mad time..
Arshad took pictures of the kids under water, and they went crazy, making funny faces...
Sambo and Jaya chatted about "Life" and its funny happenings...
And I slept under the shade of a coconut tree...happy and satiated and drunk on life...
(but missed Mini, Vivaan, Sairah, Sandy, Kichie, Shaheen, Arsalan and Ayatal...It did not feel quite the same without everyone...)

But Zene's birthday is always full of magic...
Just like her..
Everything turns out very special, where she is concerned...
Even the way she was born..was like straight out of a film scene...
Unreal..
Will share that a little later..

As for Zene, she is just a little munchiken , who is into princess stuff and considers herself one too...Have no clue, where she got that from..
She says whats on her mind..
Throws tantrums...
And when she cries , she breaks your heart...
And when she hugs, they are the tightest hugs ever...
She is a feisty, naughty little bundle of contradictions...
She is learning to swim, and would not take out her swimming goggles, even when they were completely fogged up..ha ha ha
It was really funny, she kept walking around with them...
And Jaya, Sambo and me would keep asking her to take it off..
But sorry , its now a much needed fashion accessory, and was not coming off, however fogged up they were...
She is more than, all I could ever ask for..
And gave me the tightest kiss, because she had such a great time...
We cut one more cake, the fresh cream , with fresh mangoes...
Oh my God...Now I really want the recipe of the sponge, the cream mix and everything...
It was to die for...

My little Zene, She is 5 today, and to me she will always be my little angel..
Cannot believe this, but I wanted another boy after Zeke...
Well I thank God for not listening to me, I ask for really silly stuff sometimes...
Thank God, he filters all my requests...

And I got this little bundle of squashable love...
She says the right things and wraps us all around her little finger...
And she has a smile , that can sell sand to the Sheik's in Dubai ha ha ha ...
She is all and everything...
And all I want for her, is that she is kept safe , in mind, body ,heart and soul...
And pray that her smile is always filled with happiness ..
And she never loses that naught spark in her beautiful brown eyes..

I LOVE YOU MY ZENE ZOE POOIEE....

DAY 70 - IRRESISTIBLE GOOEY CHOCOLATE BROWNIES

If there is one thing in this world I just cant give up...
I make various promises to myself to stop being in touch with...
I stop associating with for periods of time..
I snub..
I ignore..
I break up with...
I completely give up during Lent..
I give up as a thanks- giving to God for various favours received...(You see  I cant help bribing even GOD with this)
But I'm completely and totally addicted to CHOCOLATE...
It's a connection that just over rides many life times...
Maybe I was a chocolatier in a previous life..
Or then maybe a fat wicked witch cast a spell on me...Jealous cow ...
Or then I was dropped into a cauldron of chocolate as a kid and my mum never told me...
Its the only thing besides, ummmm.... LOVE, that makes my world go round ...
I devour chocolate when I'm happy , sad , mad , bad, cranky, pranky, sunny days, winter days , stormy days and even in the spring...
As a kid I used to smear chocolate on my lips and , lick it off a little at a time...ha ha ha
Err..... I sometimes still do this when no one is looking...
Try it, its great fun...

My favorite chocolate in the world is a very humble chocolate called ,"Galaxy"...
Well what can I say, it really is out of the world...
so so corny ...ha ha ha

Well I love making stuff with chocolate..
and so  I always keep slabs of chocolate at home , in case I feel like baking something or the other...
To me Chocolate makes me fall in love..with life..
And I love being in love...
It's such a wonderful place to be in ...

I feel Chocolate  has magical powers and hence I totally believe that I'm magical since I am mostly filled with lotsa Chocolate..

I don't believe its fattening at all...
And how can something that makes you so happy, be bad...

I remember people saying ,"don't give your kids chocolate, it makes them hyper"...
But I have never really listened to what people say or bothered about what they say about me or adhered to any rules...
I live my life taking chances and living with courage to face ...whatever...
I do what comes naturally and learn my lessons of life as I live...

And so Zeke , Zene and me have devoured tons of chocolate and danced and sung and played and have a great time...
Anyway , I have been ordered by the doctor to always carry chocolate with me since I suffer from "Low blood pressure;...
Yup,  its weird , most people think I'm hyper...which I may be on the outside..
But my insides are calm , serene and full of sweet love...
And I love being this bag of contradictions, its what makes me ...ME..
Yes ...I'm easy going and friendly and open-hearted and believing...
And that may not always be nice...,...
But I'm staying this way...because that's the only way I know how...

And so a few days ago, I woke up and felt like, I should be hanging with CHOCOLATE ...
And so pulled out my recipe books, and googled and went through my notes,and decided to make something that is UMMMMMM ....Happy and full of love...
Now that is such an irresistible combination...
And after a lot of serious choco-hunting all over the country side...

I met Jamie Oliver..
Now who does not like a good- lookin chap who cooks like better ,than your ..errr MAMA...
Well I thought it would be great hanging with him ...
In the virtual world that is, and make these deeelicious babies....ha ha ha

INGREDIENTS
250 gm -Unsalted butter
200 gm- Cooking chocolate
50 gm- walnuts optional
80 gm- cocoa powder
65 gm - plain flour
1 tsp- baking powder
360 gm- Castor sugar
4 large eggs..I used 5 because we have normal small eggs...
And I added 2 tbsp of Philadelphia cream cheese ....Just wanted to be a little risky, since I was cookin with Jamie...
ha ha ha I have lost it ...

METHOD..

Pre heat your oven to 180 degrees...
Line a 9-10 inch pan with silicon paper...ya now I cant seem to do anything without it..Tante Marie spoilt me...
Melt the butter and chocolate over a baine-Marie ..or in a double boiler..Or then just zap it in a microwave, taking care not to over do it .....Mix it until really smooth and glossy..
Add the chopped walnuts..
Add the Philadelphia cream cheese..
In a separate bowl mix together all the dry ingredients , sieve it and add it to the chocolate nut mix.., stir it together really well... 
Beat the eggs in a separate bowl and add to the brownie mix, mixing really well..
Put your Brownie mix in a tray and cook it for about 25-30 minutes, or till the mix does not jiggle in the middle..
Be careful not to over cook this, as they should be a little firm n the outside but gooey in the middle..
Allow it to cool...


Well I do not have too much patience when it comes to chocolate, so I waited for a bit and then , picked up the silicon paper with the awesome hot chocolate filled baked brownie staring at me... 
Put it on a chopping board and cut it into  big chunks...
Well all I can say is that , I bit into  a chunk of ...
Have actually no words to describe it as I'm still chomping on the last piece..
It is soft and crunchy and the Phily gives it a gooeyness that's just irresistible...And the chocolate flavour just overtakes you like a handsome pirate , and you willingly get robbed , with a naughty smile plastered on your face ..
At this point of time if Bradley Cooper wanted to go out with me , I would refuse ...ha ha ha ..

So here's presenting "Irresistible Gooey Chocolate Brownies"...made with a lot of mischief ..and a wink...
Only and Only from , "Maria's Kitchen' ...

Er ...Bradley ...I can meet you , an hour from now, If you are really lucky...ha ha ha ...
See that's why I Love Chocolate ..
(its Soul Food for my Gooey Heart) 

Happiness....

Happiness is like a bunch of puppies running after you , yelping and kissing your face...
These are the puppies of my Golden Retriever Betty-Boo and my Brown Boxer Ninja...
Yup I know what you are thinking...
How on earth...
Well what can I say, they were both in love with one another and thanks to them , I have my little Taz , who is anything but little ...
So yup, Happiness comes in different forms and ways and through various means...
All we have to do is stay open and we will receive , all the happiness that is rightly ours...

So what does being happy really mean...
Does it mean no worries , no cares..
That your heart is aglow with love and more..
Or does it mean that you are not letting sadness touch you anywhere...

We all interpret happiness in different ways..
To some it's an elusive job..
To some a home of their dreams..
To some a ticket to the Andaman's
To some , a meal..

Happiness means different thing's to different people..
I do not have substantial evidence of happiness, that does exist in the hearts of every soul...
But know fully well..
That when you sleep without a care in the world..
Without a knot in your tummy..
Without an ache in your heart..
Or a longing in your dreams..
You are happy by all means..

I remember , when I used to work...
I was often asked , "what do you want most in life"..
And my standard reply would be,"To be happy"..that's all..
And I remember bewildered looks on the journalist's faces..

But frankly if you have happiness , you have peace..
If you have peace..
You have a life, worth its while on earth..
There is nothing more precious to me in this world that Peace, love and happiness..

They are such simple words..
But cover a multitude of everything...

All I want sometimes is Everything...
Or then I'm willing to trade it for just happiness..

The kind of happiness that means ,
Everyone around me is safe..
All the ones I love, are in a happy place..
Where sitting and watching a sun-set is bliss..
Where there is an unstoppable smile on every one's lip's....
Where if you hurt, its because someone has hugged you really tight..
Or you having a pillow-fight..
Where you have mostly tears of joy, because your little boy and girl, just washed all their toys....
Where Angels hover around you in the guise of friends..
And broken-hearted is only because you burnt your new white shirt again..

To me happiness , is holding little hands and tickling little feet.
Looking into the eyes of the one that I love to meet..
It's that voice that calms me when I'm scared ..
Or makes me laugh when I have burnt my baking bread..
Happiness to me means to say whats in my heart ..
Not to take my love for granted ..
Or tear it apart..
It's the voice of reason in stormy weather..
And that beautiful song, that will play , in my heart because of you , forever..

Happiness is really not that rare or elusive a bird..

A beautiful Pheonix only rises from the ashes..

So remember whatever you may be going through right now..
Is just a migratory bird..
That's frightened of the cold...
And will leave, because it has no courage at all..

So don't cling on to a season..
It's here to be gone..

But protect that warm lamp of love that is "YOU'...
Keep her secure and happy , all year through..
Don't let anyone rain on her parade..
Don't let anyone trample on her love and joys..
Don't let her ever feel blue, because she gave her love that was so true..
Look after her , when the rain is pelting hail from the sky..
And let go of what has made you cry..

You can make the world smile only, if you are happy inside "YOU"
Because happiness is "YOUR'S" , if you can manage to kiss the tough times "ADIEU"...

P.S. I completely love this song..so sharing it with you ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE FEISTY ZOHRA SEHGAL...

I had the fortune of meeting the beautifully funny and absolutely charming Zohra Sehgal, when she attended the IIFA Awards in Bangkok in 2008..
Remember it was horribly hot and I just walked in from a bout of shopping , what else, and was waiting for the lift , when , the lift door opened , and this bright smile greeted all who were waiting on the other side..
OH ..Freakin ..Hell...this is Zohra Sehgal, she is so tiny and so cute...
And I love her in her movies she is so adorable...
So I got into the lift, and was thinking I need  to meet her...
So I pushed myself out of the crowded lift and said sorry to everyone and ran out again, and was hoping that I do find her in the lobby...
I was wondering whether I should disturb her or not..
You see, I know actors get really fed up sometimes, and like their privacy...
So I went towards her and said ..'HI" in the cutest way I possibly could, hoping that she will reciprocate...
Well, she looked up and said "HI" ..
And then I told her that I am a big fan of her work and that she is really cute..
To which she said"You are not too bad , yourself" ha ha ha I LOVED HER...
Then she actually quizzed me about what I have seen..since I'm a fan... I completely loved her spirit..
And thankfully I actually do really like her and told her about stuff that I had seen over the years...
And she said,"Do you think I'M that old"...To which ,I at that point, shut the Sagittarian big mouth of mine and laughed...
At which point her daughter looked and me and said , she is full of all these mad lines..
Well I told her that I too started off my career as a dancer only thing is , I never went to Germany to study dance...Hmmm that made her smile...
We then chatted a little bit more, and I asked her if I can take a photo with her, to which she agreed ...
Then she said another thing about not having her make-up person with her, and I said something about me being sweaty..
And her very indulgent daughter took this photo  and then she was whisked away in a car, to explore Bangkok..
But I was so very very happy that I got to meet the beautiful, feisty lady with a smile that twinkles from her eyes and crinkles her nose, when you look at her, she is full of mischief ...
And she warmed my heart and left a big broad smile on my face ...
Her spirit is so infectious, childlike, naughty and full of glitter...yup...she shines..
I want to grow up and stay young just like her ....

So here's wishing the feisty lady of funny words, "A very very Happy 100th Birthday"...
Stay blessed and happy wherever you are, and Thank-you for all the wonderful smiles you shared with me..
I will always treasure those few moments of fun and laughter ...

THANK- YOU ...

Well I am truly blessed with a wonderful family, and friends who are my family , who love me with all my eccentricities...
Who love me through my mistakes..
Through my happiest love filled moments....
Through my "foot in mouth" moments...
And most of all when , I'm not good company...

When I'm happy, sad, mad,talking non-stop, silent,  heart-broken, very very hungry and sleeping...
Thank you for all the encouragement and for always standing by me , with open arms and a smile on your face, even though, you are so angry with me for doing stupid things...
For laying bets amongst yourselves...on all the silly things I'm about to do...
And most of all for encouraging me to cook and write and for encouraging the madness that makes me.... Me..

And to Bianca...who introduced Matt Preston to my blog...
Thanks Bianca...and I will always be your Muse...

Thanks for making me feel like the most beautiful animal in the Savannah running free...

HAPPY STONES

It's days like today ..
When I'm sitting alone in the solace of my home ..
Without the din of my everyday chores ..
Without my kids and all their friends..
Hovering around me like a flock of sheep ..
That I have learned to listen to the silence of the universe and bow before providence ..
That is mine in all abundance ..

I have realised that I know nothing of the world yet ..
And though I have lived long enough and think I know quite a lot ..
Realised that , that is far from the truth ..

I have always felt I can figure people out ..
Without a doubt..

But that is my greatest folly ..
So after I have stumbled and bumbled and made a complete mess ...
I have now lately realised ..
That because I'm volatile ,impulsive and unpredictable ..
More often than not ..
Find my self sitting on the highest branch of a tree ..
Wondering how on earth this came to be ..

But when you right up there ..
Taking in the fresh air ..
That's when I can see clearly, all my crazy fun times and stupid follies ..

Follies I try and erase from my elephantine memory ..
And as for my fun times..
I do something , that according to me is both sweet and silly ..

"Happy stones" ..
I pick one every time ...
I'm just bursting with joy..
And it just the nicest thing to do ..
I search for colours ,shapes and textures...

Because that's how moments in life are ..
Bursts of joy ..
Bursts of light ..
Laughter....
And sometimes .. Just a crinkle on my nose ..
And a twinkle in my eye, or maybe just a half-smile, that's gonna give the musings in my mind away ..

But I love to collect stones and sea-shells ..
That now, I know so well ..
Because they are little pieces of this vast universe branded with memories of mine..
That I have collected at different times ..

And sometimes , when I'm having a bad day ..
I just run my hands over my happy stones .....
And I know my life will always be more than just a SUPERCALIFLAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS DAY...


P.S. I love this song, feel like it was written for me..ha ha ha

LET LOVE GO....

So you can love someone crazily and keep them in your heart and ..
Still let them go ..
Have you ever been in a place like so ..
Being at crossroads is not something we all have not faced ..

Our hearts were made to love..
And experience feelings that are impossible to manipulate ...
That's the unspoken pact between our heart and mind ..
To always agree to disagree..

The essence of us all is love ..
That's our very core.
Who told me ..
Well ... I don't remember no more ...

But this feeling came to me one day and has stayed ..
I cannot stop how I feel ..
And I cannot feel less than I do ..
And yet I have realized ..
That this 'Love Thingy' is the most complicated feeling of what really is such a basic emotion ..

It's all about timing I feel ..
Maybe I should have been born in a different time ..

But I'm encapsulated in a moment that brings so much joy..
Making me walk with my eyes wide shut..
Turned me upside-down and inside-out..
And showed me the reflection of someone new ..

Well that's exactly what love does to you..
It gives you new vision ..
It smashes old ways..
It makes you meander on paths that have been waiting for you in a cloudy haze..
It makes you bare your soul to the elements
It dissipates all fear..
It sometimes robs your speech..
It clads you in an armour that makes you feel safe and complete....
Faster than the strongest gale..
Invincible in the stormiest weather..
Bold enough to bare your naked words, that lay steeped in your core..
Wear your heart on your sleeve ..
Strong enough to traverse , anywhere you feel, you could just be together.....

Brave and drunk under this mystic spell ..
A heartful of wine ..
And a bagful of gazes that only you recognise so well ..
Glances.. Moments..smiles that caress your soul ..
A tiny touch that breaks through all your defences ..

So does love make you strong or weak..
Does it hypnotise you beyond all belief....
Does it satiate you with its drunken promise of a rainbow beyond the mighty mountain range..

So like they say..
If you love someone let them go ..
And only then will you know..
If you walked together or you were traversing alone ..
Like yin and yang , separate , but sublime....travelling alone yet together in time...

Because after a bit , a while.....
If there is no one calling your name or braving the storm to hold you close....
No one ,calming the hammering in your heart...
Or stealing your breath with every kiss...
Or gazing into your eyes laden with love, and making you feel like you are the only girl in the world..
Don't be stuck in a day-dream no more ...

It's better to change your route and start anew....
With an adventure..
That will be yours in time ..
All you have to do is face the sun and the shadows will all fall behind you ...

GO WITH YOUR HEART

And so dreams do come true ..
If not all. then I know .at least a chosen few..
If you do wish for something from the bottom of your heart ..
Your wishes do emerge from the deepest abyss ..
And come and plant themselves in your life like the sweetest kiss..
And warm life with moments in time..
That I know ,will always stay mine .
We live and learn new facets about ourselves every day ..
But experience really garners no real , Book of instructions for life..
We write each day as it comes ..
And don't really go back to refer to times lived ..
And lessons learnt ..
Guess because ..
We all do change in time ..
And what used to hurt makes you smile for a mile ..
And what brought the biggest grin too your face ..
Now just fills your eyes with tears that you are not able to erase ..

So no don't make no plans ..

Sometimes I have had conversations in my head ..
And also knew what I was going to say and do ..
If I met the person ..
The who ..
But realised ..
That nothing goes according to plan ..nothing works like clockwork ..
Not even the clock ..

But our heart does ...
It does not stop..it may skip a beat ..
Or quicken or slow down a bit ..
But it works always ..
Till we go to a better place ..

So yup ..
Will go with my heart ..
Like I say.. It's on the left but it's mostly right ...

It makes me do silly things ..
It's what makes me ...ME..
And yes I do say sorry when I'm wrong ..
I mostly say what I'm feeling inside ..
But sometimes say and do the exact opposite, instead ..because,my heart is running faster ,than all the words ,I'm trying to string together ,in a sensible manner in my head ...
And sometimes ,I seem to hang on to nothing , but can't seem to let go ...

And so when I see a new moon ..
I know fully well ..
That something magical will happen soon ..
And so make a wish ..
And in my heart know this ..
There is always a rainbow after the rain..
and there are shadows only because , you stand in the light..

So live life and dream..
Its completely all right...